spaciousness reimagined

behind the scenes of spaciousness reimagined

{my why and personal journey of integrating the multifaceted nature of spaciousness…this is not an arrival story, but rather a peak into my real life stories and thoughts on my own process…as a reminder that you are not alone. ever.}

in October I noticed a pull into spaciousness. but it looked unlike anything I would have expected. and it came through in two quite specific parts if you will…

part one: clarity around what was desiring to be given space…basically shifting focus, allowing for breath and a release of pressure.

part two: clarity around what was desiring to take up space…again, shifting focus towards what was truly desiring attention and not always what is “supposed” to be given the attention.

the thing about this knowing, this clarity, that was coming through, was that it looked…well, uncomfortable, and rather odd.

let me break it down for you…

what was desiring some space? well, my business. my beautiful, glorious business was desiring some serious space. I’ve begun to honor and see her as her own living, breathing, entity. and I could hear her saying {when I got quiet enough and was willing to actually hear this counter-intuitive message that was coming through}, “you’ve been hard core pushing me and focusing on me for the last 18 months, and um, could you give me a little space? could you let me breathe a little? could you just take a step back and stop cramping my style? I’ve got this. just back off a minute…please” hah. she’s got some sass doesn’t she? I freaking love it!

what was desiring to take up some space? I have been given such beautiful gift in the last few months as I’ve come on to support one of the most delightful humans on the planet in her business. and this opportunity, it was asking to take up more space. this relationship was asking to be given more time and capacity to thrive and grow. it was asking to be nourished.

and so, I had a choice. would I listen to this knowing, to this clarity? would I honor this new emerging…even though it felt counter-intuitive to what it’s “supposed to look like to be a business owner”? or would I keep going in the direction I had been going? trying to do all the things, trying to balance it all, trying to thrive everywhere while also not deeply nourishing anything.

it took some exploring with my coach, some serious self trust and willingness to enter into the unknown. but, I said yes.

I said yes to honoring my knowing. to allowing space and to taking up space.

and you know what? I think we talk a lot about taking up space…or there is a lot of talk about taking up space…but there’s not a lot of talk about how, when you take up space, over here. you’ve gotta give some space, over there.

or maybe, you could look at it this way. if all you’re doing is focusing on “taking up the space” then you’re going to land smack dab in the middle of burnout and overwhelm. because you are one human, designed to rest and be nourished and to thrive. thriving is not available when you’re burning yourself out on taking up all the space.

and don’t get me wrong, you know I am a HUGE believer in taking up space. but, what I’m getting curious about, and what I’d love to invite you into a conversation around is, are you taking up space in the places that are truly desiring to be taking up the space? and, are you allowing yourself rest and nourishment and time to breathe in the midst of your soul calling and desire to take up space?

may you allow yourself to redefine spaciousness, your way. you are not alone on this journey. I am in it with you. will you enter into sacred space with me?